My Testimony of Faith
I am a Christian-non denominational however I was born into a very, very religious family (Plymouth Brethren) and am so grateful those values stuck with me today. As a 3 year old, I was separated from my father which was absolutely devastating to me and I still haven’t fully healed from that. Growing up, we attended church on Sunday and each summer I would spend at least a week at Lakeside Bible Camp; a camp my grandparents help found on Whidbey Island, Washington.
The lessons I learned as a child made me feel like I was never good enough. Ever. I was always embarrassing myself. I couldn’t even bring myself to sing along to the songs. I felt like I didn’t belong because I didn’t have a similar background. I was shunned from getting married in the family church, I was kicked out of church camp for sharing too much about my convoluted past. I understand completely now why, but at the time, it felt like I wasn’t good enough for Jesus. I share this because I KNOW I am not alone in that. But what I believe Jesus does, is get in your soul and lets you know He’s there even when you don’t truly believe it.
In high school, I was part of Young Life. I remember going to Malibu, Canada and being bewildered by their “Smoker’s Rock” cause Lakeside could never. Young Life let me feel like I actually did belong-it was a gathering of students all listening to inspiring messages. I stayed encouraged during some extremely difficult high school years.
Fast forward to my early 20’s. I was a train wreck. I still took myself to church each Sunday…when I was homeless and in the Tacoma Rescue Mission, I remember having what I think was a miscarriage but it was the rock bottom foundation that brought me up. I ended up living in a program called Faith Homes for two years while I achieved my second AA in social work (my first was cosmetology). I learned some serious street smarts in that time and was exposed to things no one should have to endure. My faith kept me protected…
After that, I won a full ride to any school in Washington and chose Evergreen State College because, duh-no grades and they took my cosmetology credits. I was exposed to EVEN MORE crazy while living there and trauma ensued all around me. Without my Christian faith, I don’t think I would have made it through that…but-I ended up picking myself up and started serving my community in politics-something I regret deeply giving up.
At that same time, I met my former partner. We were together since 2008….FAST FORWARD
I ended up manifesting my own dream job with the Seattle Seahawks, manager at Nordstrom, top 5% Tesla salesperson (before the doge-ing), and started this website. This website was created as an artistic outlet to share my knowledge of various health, beauty and lifestyle tips with the main goal of inspiring you to achieve your own goals.
I am now on my own after a tumultuous year of insane familial betrayals. I knew the power I had within to overcome as I had before. Here are the steps I have taken over the last year to get to where I am right now: I write a page of things I am grateful for each morning and read a passage or so in the Bible. I am pushing myself to work on my dreams while also working a full time job that enables me to educate and influence in a way that is needed currently. I have no time to wallow, only time to better myself. I attend therapy. I am all alone now and I KNOW that Jesus is with me. I started this practice the week after the scandal..
What I believe Jesus can be is a lesson on how to live. His whole thing was selflessness. If more people killed their egos to serve others, this world would heal. I believe everyone’s true purpose on this planet is to follow your passion. If EVERYONE followed their heart to achieve their dreams while also helping others achieve theirs, this world could sustain on its own. We were all given a certain amount of gifts and talents to share-do you know what yours might be and are you sharing it with the world? I believe that’s the key to our world’s happiness. Jesus has me serving the earth in so many ways currently but I am fulfilled-I know I make a difference in the lives I help each day. I dont have the billions I dream of, but I know enough money is on its way. I have what I need to enjoy each day and thats all I can currently ask for.
Fun fact: I have AuDHD so I hope you were able to follow this if you’ve read this far.
I will gladly help with any questions you have regarding faith, Jesus, etc. My life purpose is to help you achieve yours.
